Hawk's Fight with Buck
(Alternative version of the fight scene from "Time of the Hawk")
next day, Hawk woke up feeling nauseous, but determined once again not to
eat. When Nurse Jensen came
by with an offer of food, Hawk just shook his head at her even though he
felt light headed and about to throw up.
Goodfellow came by and asked. "You have not eaten anything in these
last few days, Hawk. Nurse
Jensen says you still don't want anything to eat, is that true?"
Dr. Goodfellow looked at Hawk and said.
"You give me no choice, but to put a feeding tube down your
throat. Nurse Jensen, the
feeding tube and head restraint."
Hawk cried as Dr. Goodfellow slipped a head restraint on him.
Hawk found he couldn't move his head, he protested. "You ... you can't do ..."
am sorry, but you leave me no choice." Dr. Goodfellow interrupted as
he put a brace inside Hawk's mouth to keep it open while he inserted the
feeding tube. "There.
You will feel the tube go down your throat, but rest assured, there
will be little discomfort. I know that this is frightening for you, but I don't want to
lose you to starvation."
struggled against the tube as it went down his throat into his stomach,
but was unsuccessful in stopping its progress.
Unable to bite down on the tube to stop its journey due to the
brace holding his mouth open, the birdman could feel it as it proceeded on
its way down his throat towards his digestive tract.
never thought that he would feel so frantic or as helpless as he did at
that moment. He could do
nothing to stop the elder healer from carrying out what he felt was his
duty. Hawk desperately tried
to think of a way. There had
to be a way.
Goodfellow watched the process from a monitor to ensure the tube went into
the stomach and not the lungs. Once
one end of the feeding tube was safely inside Hawk's stomach, the doctor
removed the brace and taped the remaining part of the tube to one side of
Hawk's mouth. The rest of the
tube leaving Hawk's mouth continued on to a machine that would dispense
the necessary nutritious liquids at timed intervals.
Dr. Goodfellow gently removed the head restraint from Hawk's head
and he apologized to Hawk. "I'm
sorry to do this to you, but I am not going to let you try to starve
yourself to death."
his arms restrained, Hawk realized that he could not remove the feeding
tube by himself. Laying on
the medi-bed and trying to think of a way to have the tube removed, an
idea came to him on how he convinced the healer to do so.
will not be able to keep this feeding tube in me if you don't want me to
soil the bed," Hawk exclaimed.
I think that problem can be easily corrected.
Nurse Jensen, I need the catheter," said Dr. Goodfellow.
are you doing?" Hawk asked Dr. Goodfellow as he pulled up the blanket
past Hawk's knees to his hips.
relax, my boy. This won't
hurt a bit," replied Dr. Goodfellow as he was handed the catheter by
saw the strange looking device just as it was placed between his legs.
Suddenly, the purpose of the device came to him as it was attached
to his body between his legs. The idea of having another medical device attached to him was
unnerving for Hawk. Without thinking, the birdman tried to kick at the
catheter, but the leg restraints prevented him from doing that
Then desperately, Hawk tried to pull himself away from the catheter
with its large, attached tubing, but it was too late as it would not
Hawk's reaction to the catheter, Dr. Goodfellow immediately put a hand on
Hawk's shoulder and soothingly said, "Calm down, my dear boy.
It is for your own good. You
will only have to wear the catheter for a few days, I assure you."
few days," groaned Hawk at the thought of being attached to another
Dr. Goodfellow covered his legs with the blanket again, Hawk realized that
he was literally at the mercy of humans now even more apparent.
If things could not be any worse, the humiliation of the tube for
force feeding and now a strange device attached to him obviously design
for the removal of body waste made Hawk wish he had died on Throm instead
of being saved by humans.
the verge of tears, Hawk moaned. "Please
... just let me die."
Goodfellow, just managed to hear what Hawk said and saw the tears start to
form in the birdman's eyes, became extremely worried about Hawk's death
wish and asked. "Why do
you want to die so badly, Hawk?"
to talk past the feeding tube, Hawk said.
"I want to be with my beloved, Koori. She was my mate."
when he lost his own wife a few years ago, Dr. Goodfellow said.
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